Stress, old friends and unreliable services

Sorry I have been AWOL for the last week. One of my old friends who moved away to Essex, came down for a court case over his child and decided to stay overnight. I noticed from what I could hear of the conversations between him and his girlfriend, that things didn’t quite seem right. I even said to him that she sounds like a proper wrongen and I wouldn’t trust her.

When I did spoke to him once he was back home. He told me that his misses had kicked him out, and told him he couldn’t come home. It turned out that she had gone out clubbing, and ended up sleeping with some bloke, within 12 hours of him leaving. He is staying with me at the moment. My Mum said he can stay, but he will need to help out around the house, while he is here. He doesn’t get paid for a month, and to be quite honest I don’t know if I can put up with him for that long. He is an old friend, but he talks so much shit, often about stupid immature things. He is obsessed with telling you about some minor incident, that happened when he was pissed. Then he will tell you over and over again, throughout the time you spend with him. I may have done stupid things over the years, but I realise they are dumb, and in no way brag about them.

He will also constantly come up with these things, he is going to do to people, their windows, cars, punching them, starting fires and on and on it goes.

He will also constantly come up with these things, he is going to do to people, their windows, cars, punching them, starting fires and on and on it goes. Not only is this very childish, but some of it potentially very dangerous all because of some drunken childish dispute. As you can probably tell I am quite fed up. I like my own space, but also just imagine trying to watch a film only to hear about all that immature shit endlessly. I dare reply to him at all because they just starts it all up again. It won’t be just once or twice though, and he doesn’t take the hint when your not replying.

I get paid half way through next week, and will probably lend him the money to get a coach back to Southend. I can’t do this for the next month. Just hearing such stupid stuff literally depresses me. I’ve tried to explain the right thing to do, and why you can’t do this or that, and if he doesn’t just change the subject it will be some totally nonsense response, in order to justify that behaviour.

This Thursday was meant to be the start of getting takeout, meaning instead of having to go to the Chemist every day I will just go 3 times a week.

This Thursday was meant to be the start of getting takeout, meaning instead of having to go to the Chemist every day I will just go 3 times a week. I checked the new prescription, only to see no changes. When I rang up to find out what is going on, I got told that they had forgotten to put in the request. Because of prescription costs, most changes have to happen at the end of your current script. Well as of Thursday, I have been waiting 9 days, and now I will have to wait another 14, bringing it up to around a month. This really pissed me off, as I play ball and stick to the rules, attend appointments, and time and time again these admin mistakes are made. I understand that they are busy and underfunded, but these admin problems are a continuous problem. This is the exact reason, why I choose to do my own reductions, instead of placing the trust and control in their hands. If they can’t put a request in with 9 days to do it. How can I trust them to increase/decrease my dose on short notice. I cannot wait a month to increase my dose mid way through withdrawing. If I can’t handle the withdrawals I am stuck with the current problems in the prescription handling.

The other day I bumped into another old friend, and as we were talking I found out that he has 10 x 5mg (yellows) Diazepam tablets for sale, each Tuesday. I get hundreds of Pregabalin these days, but Valium is very hard to find. I am going to buy 20-40 in total, and save them for when I am withdrawing, as it makes all the difference. I am hoping that my Doctor will prescribe them for a brief period, but I hate to say it but I don’t have much faith in that plan.

I hope you are all well. As you can see I am having a challenging time at the moment.

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