Relapse and pain

The last day or two has been totally numb after the loss of my Nan. I have just been at home with my Mum but when I look back everything is totally blank. I guess this is just part of the mourning process. I’m not the emotion type who is going to burst into tears. […]

Death, Depression and family

First thing this morning I woke up to my front door bell being pressed over and over and for very long periods. This of course is unlike any other time as delivery drivers ring the bell once if your lucky. I told my Mum that the bell was going and we put 2 and 2 […]

Switching to methadone was a good move

I relapsed very quickly after successfully completing a 3 and 1/2 month rehab program. Of course I thought I could control my opiate use. I was using then leaving a couple of days before going back to use more. It didn’t take long before I waking up feeling like shit knowing that it will take 2 weeks to get s script. It took around a month, before I was truly dependant on opiates.

Heroin, Methadone and my story

About 5 years ago I started a blog very similar to this, recording my experiences with addiction, methadone and buperenorphine. I decided to start another blog as part of my recovery. I want to share my experiences with maintenance therapy, addiction and life in general. I recently switched from 16mg Buprenorphine to 30mg methadone, although […]