Gym, relationships and depression

So it’s been a little while since I last posted. This has mainly been because of a mix of having nothing to talk about and on the other hand just being lazy. Speaking to my son’s mother has been a bit of a mixed bag. At points we get on like a house on fire, […]

My inner battle with addiction

My depression is back with a vengeance and has left me feeling lost I guess. Mornings have been the worst and usually my mood lifts a little in the evening but not always. I have never been the suicidal type mainly due to the pain it would cause various members of my family rather than […]

Day 2 on my reduction journey

Now I don’t want to mislead if you follow my blog then you will know I have not reached 0mg on my methadone script but I did do a rather fast reduction from 40ml to 25ml. I knew I would probably had a bad time and I did. I have 1500+ml of methadone in my […]

Major Progress, Major Emotions

So since my last post I have made amazing progress in reducing my methadone dose. I was fairly stable on 40ml but had to briefly go up to 50/60ml for a couple of days. I then dropped back down to 40ml again with no problem. From there I started dropping 5ml here 10ml there and […]

Anti-depressants, Meth Reductions and True Motivation

I have never been one to really see much value in anti-depressants. This isn’t because I’m one of those people who think it doesn’t exist but more because I have never had great results while being prescribed them. The reasons behind why this could be are many and most likely linked to poly drug use […]

Sports betting, Lockdown 2 and future plans

Here in the UK we have been plunged into another lockdown. To be quite honest thought just like before I’m not too fussed having to stay indoors giving I’m always on my computer anyway. It would be nice to see the end of all this. Life as an addict is stressful enough without adding further […]

Life, Death and a New National Lockdown

So we’re all heading back into lockdown over here in the UK. To be quite honest it doesn’t bother me all that much. I spend so much time online and have friends all over the world that it isn’t anywhere near as isolating as it is for others. As a family it has been an […]

A little slip

As I mentioned before I had been doing really well. I managed to stabalise on methadone, no other drug use (excluding cannabis) for 2-3 months. Due to not spending all my money on little brown and white cling film wraps I was buying monitor mounts, PC monitors and a pair of really nice studio headphones […]

Savings, Headphones and addiction

As bad as I feel saying this but Covid, lockdown this whole period in time has been great for me. Not only have I managed to stablisise perfectly on my methadone but I have stopped using on top altogether. I don’t even know how long it has been but it is safe to say one […]

Sales, Skills and (Potential) Success

Since my last post talking about my plans going back to work somehow led me to a wholesalers website that I had no idea even existed. Usually I could tell you exactly how I ended up finding it but this one was just pure luck. I guess I just happened to click the right link […]