Stress, old friends and unreliable services

Sorry I have been AWOL for the last week. One of my old friends who moved away to Essex, came down for a court case over his child and decided to stay overnight. I noticed from what I could hear of the conversations between him and his girlfriend, that things didn’t quite seem right. I […]

Drug Test, Takeout and a Poem

Wow well I’ve just woken up at 3.30pm. All I can say is I must of needed the sleep as I didn’t even go to bed last night particularly late. This week has been very productive I wish I could show some of the things I have been working on. The reason I can’t is […]

Internet Issues

First of all I would like to say sorry for not keeping my end of the deal, not posting once a week on the day I said I would. Being an addict my life is chaotic both physically and mentally. Whenever I try and set goals like this I usually end up putting things off […]

Poem’s of our time

I’ve not really got much to write about today, but I wanted to show you a picture of my Granddad’s poem book. He had a real passion for poems which considering he was a very logical person hence why he went on to become an engineer. I too feel that my life, my world is […]

Instinct and the NHS

I woke up at 8.55am, went to the chemist and got my methadone just like any other day. My tooth which originally snapped 15 years ago biting a Refresher’s bar. At the time I didn’t have a NHS dentist and thus private it is. 2 xrays, a filling followed by a £250 bill. Thank god […]

The positives of blogging as an addict

I decided to venture back into blogging, more specifically blogging about my addiction based on past experiences. I already knew that simple writing things down would help me deal with them in the real world. I am so very thankful for everyone who comes and shows me support whether by liking the posts, following my […]

Sorry for not posting on Sunday but here lies a poem

Hi guys and girls. I would like to apologise for not posting on Sunday. If I’m honest I went out on Saturday had a few beers, smoked a little weed and caught a little sunstroke at the same time. We have had truly amazing weather over here in the UK. Even though I’m not going […]

Gardening and Unreliable Friends

With summer just around the corner it’s time to start planting vegetables. This year I won’t be doing quite as much as previous years as with selling the house the garden needs to be tidy. That said I will still have a reasonable amount going. Potatoes, Carrots, Beetroot, Radishes and Spinach. We also just re-potted […]

TED Talk – Johann Hari – Everything you think you know about addiction is wrong

Lost in the Present

The phase lost in the present describes how I am feeling right this second. I know I am destined for better things but somehow I feel stuck in place. Too scared to make a decision, so many regrets in the past. Moving forward terrifies me as I have made plenty of mistakes and wonder when […]